Cranky

I'm really annoyed, very cranky, a little psychotic and no, I don't have PMS. I'm just tired and fed up and sick of some of the things that have been going on. I really have no one to blame but myself for some things that happen but others are beyond my control even though I have every intention of changing the circumstances that surround them.

I'm using my usually upbeat and somewhat humourous blog as a way to vent some frustration tonight. I shouldn't but I am. I really wish I could just blabber out exactly what is on my mind but for the sake of all those involved, I won't. Believe it or not, I actually started to value privacy.

Bottom line is this: I need a break. I need to be able to go for a cup of tea with my friends. I need to be able to plan a "Girls Night Out". I need to be able to walk to the store by myself if the mood hits me. I need to be able to come and go as I please, with or without the kids. I need to be closer to my friends and family. I need to be able to pack up the kids and go for a visit -- within walking distance. I need to be able to let them outside to play and not worry about crackheads and child molesters.

I'm done, I'm through with living according to the rules of others, living the way someone wants me to live, the way they want me to be. Smile and nod. Agree and don't argue. Don't get upset. Cook. Clean. Work. Stay home. They can be your friend, the others cannot. No you can't go. No, you don't need to go out. No visits, too far to drive.

The straw that broke the camels back.

TIRED OF BULLSHIT!!!